Skip to content
Capilano Courier
Menu
  • Home
  • Sections
    • News
    • Features & The Profile
    • Arts & Culture
    • Letters
    • Humour
    • Video Production
  • About
    • Advertise
    • Contribute
  • Meet the Crew
  • Online Issues
  • Events
Menu

Do I Know What I Say?

Posted on September 3, 2024 by Vansh Malhotra
Vansh Malhotra (He/Him) // Contributor  

 

Someone who had always been the answers to all my questions.  

Someone who now becomes a question mark to all my answers.  

Did talking to you remind me of positivity?  

Or did positivity remind me of you?  

I am confused. Did we become friends to change our destiny?  

Or did destiny decide to change our friendship?  

Maybe, the answer did not lie in friendship adding to our happiness.  

The thought of adding happiness to our friendship never crossed my mind.  

I hope this is only my horrible imagination confusing the bright reality.  

Alas, no, it is the horrible reality confusing my bright imagination! 

 

I am laughing out loud. I am crying inside.  

I am smiling at everyone. I am sulking from within.  

I am excited to socialize, I am dreading talking to myself.  

I chuckle and giggle when I think about you. I also get anxious at the same time. 

 

Life is funny. Life is serious,  

Life is a mystery. Life is dreary . 

I am confused. I have clarity. 

I do not know. Maybe I know.  

 

I am not able to accept it. I am not able to reject it.  

I am clueless. 

I want to speak to my family. I do not want to speak to them. 

They may get irritated. At times they understand me, too.  

I am unable to sit still. I have to sit still.  

I do not want to study. I have to study. 

I want to erase memories of you. Maybe, I want you back in my life.  

Category: Literature

Post navigation

← 10 Books to Read this September
Ahead of the Election: How much do B.C. public servants make? →

Leave a Reply Cancel reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Latest News

  • AI Slop: Hallucinations
    The Precariousness of Trusting AI in Professional Settings Ben Taylor (he/him) // Crew Writer Andrei Gueco (he/him) // CrIllustrator As […]
  • Youth Drug Use in Vancouver
    A discussion with a front line youth worker  Jasmine Garcha (she/her) // Managing Editor Rachel Lu (she/her) // Crew Illustrator Resources […]
  • Fail to Plan, Plan to Fail: The exploitative system driving international students away
    How policies based on long-term economic needs are being enacted by institutions focused on short-term survival Laura Morales (she/her) // […]
  • CapU has a New Safety App
    Building a safer community Laura Morales (she/her) // Co-Editor-In-Chief Eugene Lee (she/her) // Illustrator CapU Safe Alert is the new […]
  • International Tuition Increase Approved, and 432 Letters From Students Disregarded
    Tuition fees have increased by five per cent for all international students, and a substantial portion of the student body is disappointed […]
  • Carney Says Canada to Recognize Palestine
    Western powers align, but little to change on the ground    Theodore Abbott (he/him) // News Editor   As Israel prepares to force […]
Video Production
Wondering what it’s really like to study abroad? We spoke with past students to get the inside scoop. Apply by September 30th to start your own journey ✈️

📲 Follow us for updates, stories, and behind-the-scenes:
  / capilano.courier
Study Abroad: A Closer Look
Subscribe
© 2025 Capilano Courier | Powered by Minimalist Blog WordPress Theme