Editor’s Desk: On coming back from the jaws of defeat

Volume 50, Issue 19: Editor’s Desk

On coming back from the jaws of defeat

Carlo Javier / editor-in-chief

By now, anyone who pays any semblance of attention to Capilano University student politics know that we once again caught another L at the referendum.

Like last year, the Capilano Courier Publishing Society, by way of the Capilano Students’ Union (CSU) Referendum, presented a fee increase question for the paying students of CapU. Like last year, we lost. Our requests were exactly same, a small fee increase to boost the production and quality of the school’s only campus publication. Yes this meant paying our editors and contributing writers and artists more, but that was truly what the Capilano Courier needed to take the next step.

Despite the similar regrettable results to last year’s, I had a vastly different feeling after we found out about our defeat. Last year, I was very open about how our loss got to me. It felt discouraging and at moments, even debilitating. The amount of “No’s” made it really seem like students did not like, or maybe even appreciate the work that the Courier is doing. While that may be true with a certain contingency of the CapU community, last year’s result also showed enough “Yes” votes to alleviate the loss. 422 ‘No’ votes sucked, but 400 ‘Yes’ votes gave me a sense of hope, a sense of relief.

This year’s results were worse, much worse. Our “Yes” votes went down to just 355, but our “No” votes rocketed to 579. Yet for some reason, I don’t feel worse than I did last year. Maybe it’s just a cynical understanding of the Courier’s place in the very fabric of the CapU community – important enough to exist, but not enough to disrupt long-established student newspaper fees. It could also be because my exit from the Courier looms. A win or a loss would not have directly affected me, given that my years-long tenure at the paper – and student press in general – is coming to its inevitable end.

Or maybe, it’s just an understanding of the value of loss and defeat.

After considerable recommendations by resident video game expert, John Tabbernor, I recently started to – finally – play Bloodborne. The game, developed by From Software, is almost like a spiritual successor to their vastly successful Souls series, a collection of games that prided itself in how it capitalized on difficulty. You will lose and you will have to try again. But with each passing loss, you come to a better understanding of how to and how not to approach challenges.

The Courier lost again this year, but that doesn’t mean the end. We can always try again, and each attempt will certainly be better than the last.

Capitalizing on failure is an oft-talked about topic, but accepting failure isn’t as easy as your favourite athlete made it seem. The realities surrounding failure, and more importantly, trying again, has started to become more evident as I inch closer and closer to a life without the Courier.

Change is coming and its daunting as hell. I’ve always been measuredly confident in what I can and can’t do, but this phase is naturally allowing more doubt to seep into my psyche. It happens, the fear of failure is hard to overcome, but every defeat offers a new perspective.

None of this is life or death. There’s always another chance.

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